Black Monday is really a bummer!

Monday blackness?Scratching the head to figure out what black has to do with Monday when it suppose to Monday blueness. Because its a black Monday when everything goes wrong from 5am till I got into bed with 'OMG!I just survived another dumbest day in my life!'

5.00am - Got up. Bang! Forgot to take a right turn from my bed  to the door. So the cupboard decided to  greet with a  'Morning!No entry lady!'
5.30am - Very high priority P&C information blindly given to an almost stranger that didn't even want it. Morning Brain  Freeze Alert! After that, the only thing that was  running in my head was a death wish out of humiliation! Argggghhhhh....
9-11am - Yes thank you.Please do forget to inform me when anything is being changed. And I know how to use a chopstick which also means I know few chopstick words.Nice,I'm being critized for something that's not even my fault in a language I don't even speak!  How stupider can one feel in a course of 7 hours?
12-1pm - For god sake!Just when I wanted to have my lunch at my favourite stall and they are closed?And I walked like so far to see a closed stall?Where is the gun?
1-6pm  - I'm not bloody being paid to decrypt your English!Do I look like a grammar teacher? Should I speak in Martian maybe?
6-7pm  - KLCC;Guardians.
             Piria   : (choosing a shampoo)Lavender? Rosemary?...erm...Which one heh?Why  did I do that?must be losing my bloody mind?Fool!
             KID   : (staring at me with a weird look)
             Piria   : Eh? Choose faster!Hungry!Better get Lavender...dandruff...dandruff...EH?(realising kid looking.Whats your problem?stop staring at me like tat!Weirdo!)
             KID   : MOMMY!MOMMY!The aunty is talking to herself!!(while running to his highly costly polished mum!)
             Piria   : What the HELL!!(Stupid Brat!!...ducking for cover! Im the weirdo?)
 Unisonly, everyone nearby the shampoo aisle starts looking around. Yes!Exactly what I needed at the  moment. And I did not even get my shampoo!Berg!
8pm  - Home!ERK!No dinner just Maggie because Burger Uncle decided to close his stall too. Why am I not surprised?
Great!The tube light in the room died on me. And,my netbook chose the perfect time to give me panic attacks that might have led to heart attack if I hadn't realise any quicker that I switched off my wireless card

Thanks Jusrup!Spending an hour to hear my laments about my black Monday. And I still feel like killing myself! =P

possible to miss someone you don't even know.

Yes. Or apparently it is possible for me. And I am missing someone for no reason at all. Blame it on the feeling overdose I got for one day. Watching not one but two love stories in one day both unique in their own way and both affecting what I'm feeling now. (Errr...banging my head on my wall)...and listening to emotional melodic love songs whole night didn't help much other....uwahhh!Me finally might cross the border between being plain eccentric and plain crazy....=,="....

How it is possible?How it is possible?Erkah!Im crushing on someone that can be deemed inappropriate. T,T.

And I am pretty sure I don't want to sit around mopping over matter of hearts. Living like hanging on a string. I don't need a crush now. Or I want now...I don't know...So classic move :

memories of the flowers

I use to know this little girl who loves talking to the flowers. What she talks about? Hurm what she use to talk about?Heeee I can't remember! But safe to guess just about everything. Just sitting there hours(might have been shorter.Who keeps time when you don't even know how to tell one) long talking to the flowers. The flowers in return; patiently and tentatively (assuming here since the flowers got no other choice) listening to this little girl. Not a word uttered to ask her to be quite. Not a turn of head to dismiss this sometimes silly annoying little girl. She cracks up laughing or frowns as if the world troubles sit on her shoulder or just sits there staring at them. The flowers go "haaaaaah!finally she shuts up!What with that psychotic look?err she not planning to pluck us!!!" But she never did and never will in the coming years. Not even after she stopped talking to them, she just never forgot what they meant to her. They are a part of her childhood that's precious like diamonds are to some.

Her secret. Her little escapade. Her trust.

Those memories created one of the small romantic streaks in the her that is in danger of being lost as she grows older and each time her trust is broken. Weighting the possibilities losing them with her growing apprehension on relationships and people. Killing of the novelty she grew up with that just like the flowers in her childhood everyone is pure(not much help from the books planting seeds of blissful ignorance of the truth sometimes staring at her).

Yet even till now, I look at them, willing myself to talk, to share my stories just like from my childhood. But, things have changed. I'm not the unsullied little girl that holds the memories of the flowers anymore. I miss them, Yes I do(err that doesn't mean you'll soon find me talking to flowers at the roadside anytime soon). Those moments of absolute trust when I know they wouldn't snub me; wouldn't judge me; wouldn't hurt me.

A crime to be single at 25?

Is it a crime to be single at 25. So what's so bizzare about staying single yet not feeling lonely but relishing the company so many good souls called FRIENDS. And saying that with the biggest grin of satisfication plus a wink in the eyes *naughty mode*.

Do I have to frown for not having the 'significant' other? Or be worried not moving forward in the race(wait!what race again?? =,=") Instead of thinking of 5 years in future; let alone 30 years in the future,why the stare each time I say I prefer living for the moment? Fact check here!My brain does not bother to plan anyting for more than 3 months. So argueably I'm not even sure of my own stuffs..let say hmmmm....till end of the year 2010?

Yeah, vaguely I know what I want to do and what needs to be done but nothing is permanently fixed in my diary!Even I myself don't know what I'm doing or going to do at times; more like my brain goes into auto mode with me  screaming NO YOU NOT DOING THAT!(but still end up doing) OR OPPS I DID IT!(usually accompanied by evil grin) OR F**K IM DOING THIS!!(alert-a big frown setting-in).  So to expect me to actually do something at a certain point of time in my life just like the other girls is simply... ridiculous?

Basically, I totally get buzzed off each time someone talks about me & my next plan in life. In future(note to myself) I'm going hang a playcard that says 'No what's your future life plan discussion unless it involves you giving me money!' =P