When heart bleeds twice...old wounds run deeper

It hurts. When the heart gets broken. It hurts more when the old wound bleeds yet again. This time the cut deeper and the bleed heavier. When eyes get clouded at the moment; one doesn't realize the foolishness of the act. What was past should always stay in the past. Hoping maybe this time around things will be different, the feelings will be different, that's just denying the truth that staring straight into you. Even if losing someone that never belonged to each other; it still hurts. The tears still drop. Even if one dances like a fool with a smile that shines from the heart; it still hurts when one realizes, its impossible to linger around with the heart  hanging on a thread.

You showed the best in me, Your touch made me forget how to breath, Your smile made me smile...Yet I don't have the faith or the strength  to linger in the shadows of hope. When you're gone, without even a whisper; my heart beats but its deprived.  Deprived of all the happiness I have known. Deprived of all the innocence of my smile. The twinkle of mischief dimmed in my eyes. Replaced by the loneliness, fear and grieve. And the sound of my empty heart beating faintly.Every time I get hurt, a part of me dies; changing me in some ways that I'm not sure I like....

I wish I knew why. Why I fell twice? Why I bleed twice? Why I become a fool twice?
How had I've been seen through your eyes? If hurting me comes easy , then leave me...go far away because that's just another way of hurting me. At least the wound be healed. At least I can smile without a frown. Completely oblivion to everything around me. Completely like a fool whose in love with life again.

Gua Tempurung & Lata Kinjang...Road Trip...

Its never to late to blog on my trip during the past weekend even if its already halfway towards the next weekend!..=P..its going to be a short one since I'm blogging during office hours and I'm not suppose to do that. hehehe...well I have a poor records of following the rules so who cares=P

The day 23.1.2010 started at 500am, I dragged myself to the station, somehow managing to catch the first train to Kelana Jaya. We were well on the way in Yuva's car while I'm trying to sleep accompanied by Kasturi and Prema voices finding out they are actually related.(It happens so often with Kasthuri, it stopped being a shocker!). What's a road trip if we are not lost. Before the actual journey started we lost the our way to Sg. Buloh R&R; ending up the other side of the R&R from where the others were. Finally reaching the R&R, we had a brief get to know people session and quickie photo session with the girls. By this time, my ever 'dependant' stomach started to growl of protest for missing breakfast. Ignoring it(momentarily), we got into the cars to begin the journey to Gopeng, but then before even getting out of the R&R, my stomach won the protest. I asked for the buns they had in Siva's car. After doing some stunts, transfering the bun into Yuva's car and succesfully earning a middle finger from the back car, we resumed the journey.

We reached Gopeng tol on record time, thanks to all the F1 drivers=P. While waiting for the parties from north, my sandals got some unwanted attention. 2 words -> Ayirithil Oruvan! Eventually, we made it to Gua Tempurung. Everyone was showing off their headlight. One thing for sure, all of us looked like modern miners!. Photo session, resumed while Big Mama Loges settled the payment. We entered the Cave, with the first part of the cave was about formations of ladies leg, horse,monkey on a wheel, ice kacang, chicken drumstick,wings, pregant lady, osama b. laden etc and Rajesh taking photos of us.

The adventorous part started when we brought to the path were no lights were installed. It was pitch dark when the guide asked us to turn off the lights. We walked through streams running across the cave. Had to crawl at some parts. Rajesh hit her head and I was thinking whens my turn.Hehehe...I had Kasthuri as my saviour for the day. She successfully helped me to get out the cave without a scratch. We managed to reach the end of the cave and thats just the 1st half of the journey! To return, we took a different  route where most of the time we were on our knees and elbow in the water. It was cool and cold. There was a 9 meter wall that we had to slide down. It was scary since all the way down I imagining myself tumbling front! And hole we had to squeeze through. I managed though!=P

 Finally, we were out of Gua Tempurung around 2 something. Time for lunch!!! We pounced on a indian restaurant in Gopeng. All 30 of us. I think the owner managed to earn their 1 month profit in just one day. It started to rain heavily by the time we finished lunch. But we decided to carry on with the Lata Kinjang plan. It might not be raining in Bidor. Out of the original 30, only 11 were headed off to the waterfall. Big difference.

The waterfall was amazing. I never seen one so high.  We climbed till a bridge, took pictures on it before realising the its just time before the bridge gives way So dangerous yet there are still people using it. On the way down, yet again  my sandals got  some unwanted attention. Thanks to Sivalingam Swaminathan! The water was a bit muddy since it rained but really chilly.  We jumped in ignoring the cold chilly water. An hour fooling in the waterfall its time to go back!

After dinner at a chinese restaurant in Bidor and Brew coffee we headed home. Back to KL. How fast a day passes when one is having fun!

What A day I Just when through...

Just got my gold chain snatched by a guy nearby my office. Didn't get the chance to get the number plate though. I was just able to stand there looking at his face and my hand on my already empty neck. Another guy nearby shouted and rushed over asking if I'm ok?...Was I? I don't know.I was still dazed and shocked when I blurted out I fine..Its OK...then walking of smiling at him. After few moment it dawned in me. I was just robbed and I could have been hurt badly. Starting to hyperventilate, I sat down on the bench like tree pots and called my Dad. Hearing my Dad's voice undid my reserve when I broke down and started stammering, unable to make coherent sentences explaining to him what just happened. I must have been in a really bad state since he was frantically asking me to stay put, he will be there to pick me up..And Dad's in Sepang KLIA!I don't remember breaking down that badly for a very long time....I was more sad because the chain held a sentimental value than cannot be compensated by anyone or anything. Well bygones are bygones...I'm not even mad at him. Its between him and god.

Well, being PIRIA...i can't be sad for very long..after that I was able to smile and joke about it with my friends who I called to share my latest mishap. Most were actually laughing because it was me,Piria something inevitable and I'm able to joke around about it as well. Even went to Kenny Rogers to cheer myself up with my cousin Dashny=P. She said I don't look like someone just got her chain snatched!hahahahaha...What am I suppose to then?I was more pissed with the waiter at Kenny Rogers...He could smile a bit not walk around like world is coming to END!=P

Guilty PLeasurE..=D

After 1 week of craving and dreaming a sip of my favorite Starbucks Chocolate Cream Chip with Whipped cream finally materialized. I was in cloud nine for every single sip I had. The ultimate guilty pleasure. As much as I know what that going to do to my waistline, who cares at this moment!!(anyway before this also I haven't cared that much so I 'm not going to start now=P!)

Actually, the main excuse for me to get myself to MidValley was to get my interview attire. I have nothing to wear(that's a understatement! I like to wear something new to my interviews=P) for the interview this Wednesday. Coming to think of it, I haven't even prepared my resume, among many other things. Just to test the market as Ayu said=P.And to meet up with Ayu(she needs a new purse).

So with important missions to accomplish, we set out to shop!Yesterday was drop things day. 1.Roxy hat 2.Espirit sandal 3.Mac Hardisk 4.MNG blouse 5.MPH Book 6. MY BAG!.*proudly*I didnt break anything tho...one thing that  I didn't drop is my STARBUCKS=D and MYSELF. Not bad to my standards.But, in the end Ayu got a sandal and I got myself two books. That wasn't even part of the mission or the list. Girls will always be girls, I guess. So done with the shopping, we sat down to quench my craving for Starbucks thats been a week!And gossiping and idle talks. It was a fun outing even though I didn't get any new clothes for my interview=P.

 

When everything seems blissfully ordered...the need to know...

The New Year started off quite well for my liking. Somehow I feel something is going to happen. Something that I might not really like or least expecting to happen. I don't know why but I have this uneasy heaviness in way corner of my crazy heart when I 'm just contentedly happy with life right now. Something going to change the equilibrium. And I have a feeling; I'm unconsciously waiting for that to happen.

What and why? I don't know the answer. I've made amends and peace with my past but now I think the future is catching up with me. Real quick that more than once I felt suffocated. I don't feel safe in present because the disturbing unknown of the future that I'm struggling to shake off my mind from.

 and somehow...as crazy as it seems...this all got to do with a drink from Starbucks Chocolate Cream Chips....somehow it will answer my nagging thoughts as my mind gets clouded each passing day with my craving for it..the need to know that I finally will get my Starbucks soon..

The long waited Baskin Ice cream...Love winnings bets..

On Tuesday, finally I got my long waited but worth the wait bet prize, my Baskin Robbins ice-cream from Nantha. He just returned from the land of the sun rise so haven't met him for almost a year. Just when I was thinking its going to be just three of us, Katlin whose back from Ausie, Nantha and myself, I was suprised to see a whole bunch of other friends. Prasad and Chandru plus with their matriculation friends; Sri and Yamuna.

I was so hungry by the time I reached Bangsar but I thought better not have anything heavy that's going to spoilt my ice-cream later. But, everyone decided they were hungry as well,so we headed to Devi's Corner to have dinner. Gulp!hehehe..food temptation is bad especially one is in a very bad hungry mode and planning to get the largest ice-cream in Baskin. Mentally calculating my capacity, I blurred out Maggie Mee Goreng!without giving my brain a moment to process further. Everyone else ordered the same food.Guess great minds think a like! Except, the smallest member of the group, Prasad, who ordered Banana Leaf meal at 7pm evening. But I still couldnt resist the vadai and Kerala fish curry combination  that Chandru ordered. It was awesome! I'm not an avid fish curry lover in this case any type of curry but thumbs up for this. We had quickie photo session at Devi's Corner before heading off to the Baskin Robbins.

Stepping into Baskin Robbins, I felt like a kid in Candy Shop with big excited eye and  an  ear to ear smile!Buckets and buckets of ice-cream of varieties of flavours and colours smilling and waving at me!Choose Me!Choose Me! I just can't make up my mind! If I had it my way I'l have one scoop of each flavour! But, bearing in my mind that not possible, I chose 3 scopes of my favourite flavour vanila with different combinations. Added on hot caramel and M&M. Simply mind blowing! Nantha just watched me, just smilling, maybe disbelieving what his eyes were witnessing..hahaha...I was really getting back at him for making me wait for so long for this. I paid for Katz ice-cream because I owe her for the riddle she anwered in Facebook sometime ago. Actually I never specified what ice-cream I'm going to buy her. Should have said the 20 sen ice-cream potong.Hehehe...

We hanged around in Baskin Robbins,catching up, enjoying the ice-cream and just clicking away the shutter. Finally, the time came to leave, Nantha and the girls send me to my house since 9.00pm was considered bit too late for me to be getting on a LRT(i seriously doubt that=P). Thanks everyone especially Nantha for buying me the ice-cream! You still owe me a Carls JR!and I'm getting that the next time your down here which would be MAY...

Aal Izz Wel=)

This is the sort of movie you’ll take home with a smile and a song on your lips! The impact of the film is so overwhelming that it left me spellbound for hours after it has ended. Actually even now I'm still thinking about it!

Based on Chetan Bhagat's novel, Five Point Someone, it's a story of three friends studying in an engineering college ICE, Rancho (Aamir Khan), Farhan (R Madhavan) and Raju (Sharman Joshi).Rancho is the rebel among them always questioning things and believing that learning is more than just the usual mode of education, living life on his own term. The definition of a book that he gave when was asked to leave the class for failing to define machine as  written in the textbook scene was hilarious.

He encourages his friends to look beyond the ordinary and soon earns the wrath of the college director Viru Sahasrabuddhe-Virus (Boman Irani). I loved Boman's character even when you tend to despise his steadfast view of how life is a race and dictatorship decisions. Loved Virus's and Rancho's chemistry throughout the movie. Rancho, despite the idiotic fun loving persona that he portrays, always surprises everyone by topping the class to much of Virus's irritation. He even manages to win the affections of the director's daughter Pia (Kareena Kapoor).I'm still laughing the scene where he first meets Pia crashing her sister's wedding reception and Virus turning out to be dad! The mint chutney and Pia's price tag fiancee scene was classic.But Rancho's greatest contribution lies is making his friends realise their true calling. Farhan; the wildlife photograher and Raju to stop fearing the future and live life as now. The twist came when on Graduation Day being awarded the Student Of The Year title, Rancho mysteriously disappears into oblivion.

Years later, Farhan and Raju,successful on their own,  finding a common thread(Chatur the Silencer), embark on a journey to find their friend in the way crashing yet another wedding. 3 Idiots is a story of friendship, hope, aspirations and most importantly, the goodness of life.

The film switches from present to flashback mode often but not once does it loses the momentum. There were scenes that made me laugh,  cry and  think.

3 Idiots is different because every scene is special and brings with it something out of ordinary.  There were a few that had a lasting impact on me, the entire ragging sequence(Salt water is a good electric conductor!); the camaraderie between Rancho and Pia(the way they saved Raju's dad with Pia's scooter and the dream sequences); Chatur's (the word 'chamatkaar' is changed to 'balatkaar' ) hilarious speech; the entire black-and-white depiction of Raju's family(so Zee drama like!); most of the scenes between  3 of them and Virus; the sequences that lead to Raju's recovery in the hospital.

Life is all about listening to your heart and chasing your dream. When in doubt just say Aal Izz Well!=P

And I'm getting the book as well since I have fallen in love with the movie; I might as well complete a full circle by falling in love with the Book!